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Trying to Return to God: A Raw, Honest Confession

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Trying to Return to God

Trying to Return to God: A Raw, Honest Confession

I am not writing this because I figured something out.
I am writing this because I finally stopped pretending I was fine.

I believe in God. I always have. That part never broke. What broke was my ability to rest in Him. Somewhere along the way, belief stayed intact while refuge quietly slipped out the back door. This season of trying to return to God has forced me to admit something uncomfortable: I learned how to obey without trusting Him to be my safety. [Read more…] about Trying to Return to God: A Raw, Honest Confession

Putting My Hope in God Instead of the Provision

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Putting My Hope in God Instead of the Provision

I woke up around two in the morning in a full panic.

Not just worry. Panic. My chest was tight. My thoughts were racing. Bad dreams that don’t really stop when I wake up. My mind goes straight to the same place every time. I don’t have what I need yet to get back and forth to work until my first paycheck comes. If I can’t get to work, I lose the job. If I lose the job, I can’t pay rent. If I can’t pay rent, everything falls apart. [Read more…] about Putting My Hope in God Instead of the Provision

Surrender to God When Fear Is Loud

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Surrender to God When Fear Is Loud

Today, returning to God looks like sitting with fear instead of running from it. It is surrender to God, not worldly hustle or frantic performance. 

The anxiety is strong today. I am not paid up on rent beyond today. I only have enough money to get back and forth to work for three days. My mind keeps running ahead of me, rehearsing every possible scenario where this falls apart, and I fail again. Every outcome feels heavier than the last, and fear keeps whispering that this time I won’t make it through. [Read more…] about Surrender to God When Fear Is Loud

Returning to God When Faith Feels Uncertain

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Returning to God When Faith Feels Uncertain

These days, when faith feels uncertain, returning to God feels like a stretching of my faith.

Not the kind of uncertainty that panics or spirals, but the quieter kind that removes the illusion of control. Returning to God lately has meant living with fewer answers than I would like and more dependence than I am comfortable with. It is a return that does not come with clarity up front, only the steady invitation to trust God where I cannot yet see the outcome. [Read more…] about Returning to God When Faith Feels Uncertain